Its been 21 months since my husband said our marriage was over. At times it feels like just yesterday that I knew him. Other times it feels like a different lifetime ago. I have had the distinct privilege of a great therapist, and the fact that you naturally grow a…

I think being single, or in the early stages of dating, is so much lonelier after divorce than normal. Because I actually know what I am missing. …

Someone hurt you. They spewed terrible words; they acted in unkind ways. You are traumatized, angry, and it has caused you to act differently towards others. It’s not your fault it happened, but it is your job to fix it. Yes I just said that. Get mad at me now…

I am angry with myself and my own cowardice. This may come out messy but sometimes, that is just the way life is. I desire to be known. Deeply known. But I am too fucking scared to actually step out and be known again. I push away friends; allowing myself…

Most days, I am happy. I feel sufficient. I love my life, my family, my boyfriend, and the changes that are happening. Other days, I am not. Other days, instead of feeling excited and grateful for the kind ways I am being loved by others, being gently guided into what…

Your anxiety makes you unworthy Your anxiety makes you a bad wife Your anxiety makes other people uncomfortable Can you go have a panic attack elsewhere? It is bothering me. Seeing you panic makes you unattractive Why are you not better by now? It’s like you aren’t putting in any…

When I first learned my husband was leaving, I thought only of the loss of him. How I would never hold him again, laugh with him, or search for his blue eyes in a crowded room. It didn’t take long for the reality to sink in. I had not just…

When I was growing up, I was always adamant about one thing: I would never let a man mistreat me. Grand talks of a game of grit-ball, break-ups, and world domination was all you would get out of me if you mentioned a man’s mistreatment. Then I grew up. Then…

I feel like I’ve done it. At some point this month I passed the year mark. From when my husband moved out of our home. From when I found out he was already on dating apps. From when I accepted our marriage was over. From when I filed for divorce. …